yipee

hey there!
it's me, again . . . but then again, who else would it be?
i beat my old solitaire score big time!!! 6633 in 115 seconds!!!! woohoo! that is definitely my plus for the day. i tried to draw with my new pastels and i think i've run out of art juice. well, i guess it's good that it stopped now and not in the middle of a picture.  that would have made me a little angry. now that i have nothing left to draw, i find myself running out of words to say, music notes to play, cigarettes to smoke, however, my music is up and coming. well, music that is already made and put on a cd. i'm listening to Switchfoot a lot and Placebo, too. when i get angry or whatever, i listen to my old slipknot, mudvayne, atdi (at the drive-in), lost prophets, or whatever my anger pulls me to. most of the time i just get up and sit outside on the balcony. i can't drive the car (the new . . . used, white miata) because one of the spark plugs keeps coming loose.  whateva.
i've also been pondering religion a lot. whenever i feel that music isn't going to help, i think and think and think about my life when it's over. i try to believe that there is some kind of higher being, but my mind and the rest of me just can't see how that could be true. i don't buy it. if you knew me, i think you could understand my reasons for it. moving on . . .
i miss my friends; my old ones, my new ones, my cousins, and rocky j's. i'd like to see them all again soon. i think it's time for a road trip.
thanks for reading!!!