Drown Inside

Could you ever know the way it feels?
When your soul is tearing at you from inside,
Or your heart wants to scream out for freedom?
Could you ever know how hard it is?
To watch you smile and laugh aloud
And look so happy without me?
I hope you can and I hope you will.
I'd like to see you drown inside, like me.
I'd like to see you struggle, just a little.
If only I could be honest now.
I would tell you my deepest, darkest secrets.
I'd let you see me at my most vulnerable,
But would you flinch or show emotion?
Could you ever?
I think not.